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Do I Regret Having Kids? Here’s Why I Had Children.

As you may know, I’m currently pregnant with my third child. And oddly, I find myself questioning my motive for this pregnancy much more than I did with either of my first two children. I’ve been stumbling into articles about “why have kids?” or about the anti-natalism or childfree movements – and it seems there’s a lot of belief out there that parenthood, and especially motherhood, not only holds one back from a more ‘significant’ and ‘productive’ potential, but also leaves a person in denial of their regret over the loss of that once-childfree-potential. Instead, parenthood is consumed by the mind-numbing-ness of dirty diapers, tantruming toddlers, never-ending carpools, bratty preteens, and rebellious teenagers…when you know, they could actually be doing something meaningful with their lives otherwise. Many use this as a reason to remain childfree, a choice that they believe will allow them to lead better, happier, more fulfilling lives than if they had chosen to reproduce. Read more…

I Can’t Go On. I’ll Go On… And Do Whatever I Can With What I Have

It’s been a summer. The first half of the summer was filled with excitement. Hope. Swelling optimism. A presumption of good times just around the corner.  Polishing our script, whittling grand ideas into more accessible coherence. KP going out on promising tv show pitches. Another old project of his also maybe being revived. It was exciting. Things were happening. […] Read more…

My Grandest Adventure…and A Dabbling Into the Metaphysics of Time

I’ve been feeling rather reflective lately. Lost in the contemplation of the metaphysics of time, both reminiscent of the past and hopeful for the future.  I remember being younger and someone explaining to me that time was like a river – that all time is currently flowing, yet all we can experience and know is […] Read more…

What Is Inception About? It’s Probably Not What You Thought.

So you recently watched the movie Inception, maybe for the 2nd or 3rd or 4th time and while you kind of got it you’re still asking yourself:  What is Inception about? 

KP and I re-watched the movie the other night. I’d seen it a couple years years ago and while I understood it at surface level at the time, I was aware that there were deeper elements involved that I was not yet able to comprehend. But I suppose time worked with my subconscious so that when I watched it again and mulled it over in the morning…everything started to click into place…and I feel that I can now answer the question:

What is the movie supposed to mean? Read more…

This is Not How I Thought I Would Handle This. (or, why miscarriage isn’t talked about)

It’s been 2 weeks. You probably didn’t even notice the silence. And that’s ok. I’ve sat down to write several times. I couldn’t write. Even as I’ve settled into this recent strange peace of acceptance, I still couldn’t write. I’ve always known this could happen. I’ve always known that this DOES happen, and not nearly as rarely as […] Read more…