miscarriage

My Journey to Having A Third Kid

So I’m pregnant and having a third kid. I’ve already got a daughter and son. Why in the world would I want another kid? Here’s my journey to how I got here.

I’m the oldest of 6 kids. I grew up in a community where most families had at least 2 children, and families of 4 or more were fairly common. I always assumed I’d have my own kids one day because, well, it’s all I really knew. However, though I liked the idea of my kids having lots of siblings like I did, I also knew how much work kids were and I didn’t want to do the work of raising a bunch of kids myself, lol, so I figured my own family one day would be a bit smaller.

Fast forward many years to KP and I seriously dating. Read more…

I Can’t Go On. I’ll Go On… And Do Whatever I Can With What I Have

It’s been a summer. The first half of the summer was filled with excitement. Hope. Swelling optimism. A presumption of good times just around the corner.  Polishing our script, whittling grand ideas into more accessible coherence. KP going out on promising tv show pitches. Another old project of his also maybe being revived. It was exciting. Things were happening. […] Read more…

This is Not How I Thought I Would Handle This. (or, why miscarriage isn’t talked about)

It’s been 2 weeks. You probably didn’t even notice the silence. And that’s ok. I’ve sat down to write several times. I couldn’t write. Even as I’ve settled into this recent strange peace of acceptance, I still couldn’t write. I’ve always known this could happen. I’ve always known that this DOES happen, and not nearly as rarely as […] Read more…